I wish I could make people understand us and also they should know how to treat us or shut the #@$* up. when a person knows that the other person is taking infertility treatment they should think before they speak . they should know what they are talking, like I have said in my previous post.
Today I am hurt my tears are not stopping my eyes are red I want to hide from everyone I don’t want to be seen as a weak person, I don’t want to talk about how the person hurt me or the topic which hurt me, but I need justification for what they said, it hurts .I wish everyone who has hurt me could read this also few more points I would like to add.
Just because you got pregnant easily that does not mean your great or I am good for nothing.
Just because it happened for you one or few tries that does not mean it will never happen me, it will happen when it has to happen , every dog has its day, my day will come too.
If you cant understand me please don’t ever try to understand me. I don’t want you to understand me, but let me be. live and let live.
If you cant support me during my infertility journey, don’t support me but don’t hurt me with meaning less nonsense talks.
Then there are people who become pregnant easily, then they plan and wait for second one, then they decide and become pregnant again, some want to plan but become pregnant by accident or whatever and in front of us act as if it such a pain , they wanted to travel but could not due to the baby, they could not to not take a promotion, they could not. that, they could not do this uff what not . I the ask God WHY ME, WHY ME, why are you punishing me, I am dying for a baby and then you give for others who don’t want or having it just cause it happened. Its never ending rant.I a not bad the situations make me bad person.
Since you can get pregnant so easily you will never know or understand how precious our miracle babies will be for us, you can never know that, cause its our journey not yours. Your baby will be obviously precious to you, all babies are are precious in-fact, but the intense pain this journey has caused will see our babies in more different light and we know for what we have fought for.
When people struggle to get pregnant and then conceive I feel so hopeful that we to shall conceive soon, I just feel so happy for them, but when I see people who just become pregnant in one or few tries and act like only they are pregnant in the world and no one else can be pregnant now are in future.When I hear such stories I cringe.
I thank God sometimes (not always) for making me go through this infertility journey, because it has taught me so much and still teaching me many things about life. people,relationships, materialist things , spirituality , otherwise I would have never known. This journey has taught me that everyone will be with you in good times and very few will be with us when we are in a bad phase of life, but that’s life isn’t it, when we know the true meaning of life.
If you have read until here you are great.I wanted to write about my blood work reports, BH’s reports and all but today’s one incident in the morning created by some close people is making me feel low, I know I am not like this I am strong and I can handle this, I have such a beautiful online support. I thank God for that. Will be meeting RE tomorrow and Gynecologist on Wednesday to discuss about lap,that’s it for now.
PS; If there are any grammatical mistakes. please ignore I just wrote it in a flow.