THE LINING SAGA

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I don’t know what will happen with my first FET cycle,usually my lining is never a issue, its always thickens on time, this is the first time, it is not getting thick, it is triple line from day 10 but not thickening like it has too.I don’t know why, I was checking my clomid cycle file, where I had to go for alternate days for scans from day 14/15/16 until I ovulate, in all those  scans every two days it used to grow 1 mm, like on day 15 it would be 6 mm and on 17 it would be 7 mm like that, so it would grow fine by the time I would ovulate, but why this time with all the medication I don’t know, this is very frustrating.

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On my day 15 scan I went for the scan it was just 6.4 or 6.6 mm not sure, in those five days it just grew less than 1 mm, why oh why is this happening.So my RE told me that my lining is not growing according to her satisfaction, so she gave me a choice to either cancel this cycle or wait for two three days and checking if my lining is growing and then decide , I told we will wait and check after two days, so now my scan is on 25th day 18 and I am hoping that it grows by then and but I am not sure.RE also told that sometime they cancel 2 to 5 cycles until the lining is fine, because our embryos are very important, we can can cancel due to lining but we  should not lose embryos and I agree with that.

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My IVF cycle from the start as always been very slow, loads of confusions, waiting and never ending suspense until  the end. I am really feeling very low and don’t know what next, if my cycle gets cancelled  luckily we had planned a trip for our anniversary but we had not cancelled don’t know why so we will go ahead with the trip in case the cycle is cancelled, so I guess I have something to look forward and divert my mind, also hopefully RE will start the FET immediately form next cycle itself I cant wait any more, already I am very frustrated with this cycle and I am also hoping this cycle wont be cancelled but I am ready for whatever it is and trying to be calm.I am tired of waiting.

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Quick Update – FET Work In Process 

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I have been a bit busy with my little nephew’s naming ceremony. My karma or what I don’t know,  every time I am on any treatment cycles it’s either  my bro and sil’s pregnancy announcement or during clomid cycle their baby shower, now it’s their baby’s naming ceremony during my FET that’s life I guess.

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Ok coming back to my appointment with RE on my day 10.RE did the TV scan/USG and told that my lining is 5.6mm triple line and she asked me did I miss any doze,I told her no, but actually I did miss on Saturday, not exactly miss I had to take 2 tabs from 13th/ CD 6 since I was travelling I I totally forgot  and as usual I took only 1 tab in the morning and 1 at night sigh.

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RE then told that I should continue the same doze until CD 15 but extra 1 tab in the morning  and 1 at night vaginally, it is so messy to take vaginally but I have no other choice you all know. On another  note I was darn sick from Monday, so I told I was sick , feeling nauseous, sleepy  and tired , RE she told that it is side effects of the tabs, she told tiredness and sleepiness is not a side effect either I have been diagnosed thyroid or I am not hydrating myself, since my thyroid is fine I should have drank loads of water.

She also told this is Hormonal replacement therapy (HRT) so you should feel like a start and all, whatever I was really sick,but, but I want to tell that two days after taking the tablet and went to meet my aunts told I was looking very good, so maybe what she told was right and I was happy with all the compliments, everyone complimented me. Yesterday I was very sick and vomited everything which I ate from morning.

In the evening I had only liquids and really felt good, so from yesterday I am drinking loads of water, decaf teas , pomegranate juice and all.So I am feeling ok as of now and tomorrow is my nephews naming ceremony so I want to be fine.Hopefully by Monday  scan, my lining will be fine and RE will let me know the exact ET date, I am typing this from my mobile app so ignore the grammatical mistakes or if something does not make sense 😁.

The Break and FET – IVF Part 5 work in Progress

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Hi all,hope all are having a great 2018. After my last post, the few people who read my blog must have wondered where I disappeared.I was just  totally lost in my own confused world, so before writing another post I wanted a break and know what exactly is happening with our first IVF cycle. I wanted to update after talking to RE so that’s why I am posting after a long time, I feel my last post which I posted, I  just posted in a hurry.The next day on day 5 , I had written probably fresh ET, read again probably, but that did not happen.

I wanted to get ET done under sedation, I had asked my RE if it possible, she told 95 % ET she does is not done sedation, only 5 % are done under sedation, but since I requested she agreed and told me to come on day 5, she told the same advice to eat sometime before 6.00am and nothing and no water until ET.

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On Wednesday 3rd Jan I fasted from 6.00 am, went to temple, but I had strange feeling that ET might not happen and in my dreams too,I would go to the clinic and they would tell that I have come late and so no ET today, I had the same dream two to three times. That was sign I must say.I waited for the call from clinic until 10.00 am,I called the clinic since I could not wait, they told  that RE was busy and they will  give a call in sometime.

I got the dreaded call, that my 5 embryos which they had left to grow (two day 3 embryos were first frozen in my 7 embryos and 5 were left to grow) only three were growing I felt so low. RE told that they were still in morula stage and they need to wait until it grows to blastocysts by day 6, I was so dejected, but at least 3 were growing and two best day 3 were already frozen, RE told she will update after day 6 one more day of wait. I called on day 6 to know, they told that  all three were growing good,they will wait until evening and then freeze so you can call next day.

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I called next day they told that they froze the best two, so now we have two day 3 and day 6 Expanded Blasts.Since my RE had told that they don’t do fresh day 6 embryo transfer, so it was FET (Frozen embryo transfer) for me. So mentally I was preparing to wait for more than a month, I was told to stop all the tablets and the progesterone pessaries and wait until I get period and go on day two to meet the RE.I had thought RE will check and give me BCP(birth control pills) for a month and then start  FET at the end of JAN or beginning of FEB, but everything changed.

I got period on 8th Jan, 5 days after of stopping those tablets that which were given for fresh transfer. I went to meet RE on 9th Jan, second day of my period, my RE scanned me the TVS scan and she told everything looks fine no cysts, but my lining was thick 7.2 mm on day 2 she asked me if I was bleeding properly, I told that I bleed properly by day 2 noon to day 3 morning, so she told come the on day 3, the next  day to check my lining and told me some blood work E2 and Progesterone and will decide on day three, my IVF cycle as always been confusing waiting game uff. So I gave my blood and prayed that everything should work out and was unnecessarily worried about my lining.

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In the evening I got a call from the clinic that my hormone levels are fine and that I can come and meet the RE for further investigations. I was happy and could not wait until the next day. On day three went to meet the RE, I waited and waited , on that day the clinic had too many patients.Finally my name was called, she first told that my hormones are fine now we need to check the lining, so again the bloody scan, she scanned and told no bilateral cysts and my lining had reduced to 3.9 mm so it was shedding fine.

 

I went back to her table she told everything looks fine we can go ahead with FET, I was nervous and excited. She gave the prescription, the regular vitamin  D tabs, Folic acid tabs and Progynova for 7 days 2 tabs (1 in morning and 1 at night) until 12th and from 13th 4 tabs (2 in the morning and 2 at night) until I meet her for day 10 scan. She told me not to miss on the timing of the tabs, if I take the tabs at 9.00 am, then I should take the other at 9.00 pm, it should be exactly 12 hour gap.I will be meeting my RE on 17th day 10 and will know what next.This IVF is made me know that  being patient  is the only choice we have and nothing else.

IVF – Part 4

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Happy new year to all my readers, have a great year ahead and hope all dreams come true and hold out babies soon. All the TTC ladies are in my prayers.I still can’t believe its 2018. Last Jan when I was in the middle of the infertility treatment, I was still in those beginning phase of the treatment and was so sure will conceive in one of those clomid or one of the IUI’s, but the universe had some other plans I guess. As I type this, still there is no baby in my belly. I could have been PUPO(Pregnant Until Proven) by yesterday but I asked my RE for day five transfer.

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Ok coming back to the part 4 of out IVF, on 29th  Dec 2017 on the auspicious day of Vaikunta Ekadhasi according to our Hindu calendar, my egg pick up/retrieval (ER) was done by 1.30 pm, according to my trigger shot timings of 35 to 36 hours.I was praying that I should get at least 12 to 15 eggs, but we got only 10.In the morning before ER BH had to give fresh SA, but he had to give it soon , as he had some important meeting , so there was so much confusion but finally the embryologist agreed to give it sooner and BH gave the fresh sample left, even though there was frozen back up, that morning confusions was very taxing.

After the ER , when I woke up, RE came up to me and told that they got 10 eggs, lets see how the fertilization is, we will know about it tomorrow and went away before I could ask any questions.I was very angry about myself that I got only 10, by then my friend F came to meet me,  about whom I have mentioned   here and here. My friend told why are you even feeling bad when others don’t even get a egg or more less than yours, I was like I am worried about me I din’t want to compare  myself with anyone at that point.Anyways I felt better speaking to her.

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When I was declared fine by the duty doctor to go home,RE had  prescribed some tabs until I meet her on Monday day 3, seeing those tabs , my friend F told you might have fresh transfer, I was like it cant be, but those tabs were for readying me for the fresh transfer. I was confused and shocked cause I had prepared myself mentally for FET. I have written about it here so many times.I am on vaginal progesterone and one more tab I don’t know the name the other tablet for preparing for ET, those tabs are making me feel confused, heart burn,nauseous and very tired.

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I left the clinic praying all of our  eggs to be fertilized and not to think about the ET (Embryo Tranfer). Until the next day I was so darn nervous, until I got to know about our fertiliation. The report was 9 eggs were mature and 7 had fertilized, that was a ok news o me, I was ok fine. Then prayed that they all grow fine, praying was the only choice I had, that’s what I did on the last weekend of 2017.

Monday JAN 1 st 2018, I went to the clinic, the junior doc did the scan, she told my lining is good and after ER there was some fluid  in the utreus, that fluid was also not there everything was looking good , so they wanted me to do day three transfer.I was not able to react, I asked can we do day 5 transfer, the blastocyst transfer,they were like we will check with RE and then decide.

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I met the RE she was busy with ER with other patients, she said.She told that success rate does not vary much, most of my patients have had success with day 3 transfer, decide what you want and called the embryologist. The embryologist showed me the report, all 7 were going good on day 3,only one was slight behind but that also was good grade, they told it might catch up.

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This was the first time in my life that I took decision without consulting BH / mom/ mil or anyone,and the decision was made within a minute, I just told, that mentally blastocyst  transfer would be fine for me.Now tomorrow I will know how many have made it to blasts.RE suggested that if I want day 5 transfer then freeze two day 3 embryo which are actually really good,remaining 5 we can let it grow, in case we lose all during the day 5 we have two day 3 back up, so fingers crossed that all five grow on day 5, and I can get done with ET tomorrow, my friend  F told that even her  few d grade embryo grew until day 5, mine was grade b embies so it should grow fine she told, I was nervous after taking the decision she told just go with the flow it will work out. Please pray that my embryos grow and I can have ET tomorrow.