Blog Anniversary and much more

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I have been MIA from almost three weeks, last year when I started this blog in March I just wrote the first post and vanished until July end. I think in march something happens to me and I don’t write much or nothing atall and yes It’s been a year since I started this blog, I started this blog on March 7th 2017, I wanted to write a post on my blog anniversary day but I have been caught with the twists and turns of life.

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The new plan was working to an extent,my follicles were growing fine, two dominant follicle’s were their but my RE was not satisfied with my lining and she does not want to risk my embryos. Anyways I wanted one full month of drug free and it has happened like the way I wanted. This month from day 15 I am on BCP’s(birth control pills) until 28th March. Then next month on day 2 I need to go for baseline scan, my RE told this cycle will be medicated but with injections and ERA test will be done,then it takes 3 weeks to get the report from Spain, and they will delay my periods so that I will get my period somewhat exact timing of the reports and they can start my FET, so according to my RE, my transfer will be in May, and I am praying that it will work this time.

I had started my acupuncture sessions, and few supplements but it did not help my lining, it might help few people not me.In between I took a second opinion form a different branch of which ever clinic I am going with a different doc, she saw my reports told that I have good embryos and also my lining grew fine in natural cycles and clomid too, maybe progynova tabs wont work for me and some people wont respond to estrogen tabs, she told injections will work for me, my uterus is normal and all, so I am relived, so planning to go with the flow as my doc, the new doc told that same thing going with the flow.

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Then as usual like this typical generation I started googling what ERA is done for, in all the pregnancy and IVF related forums, I read its done for implantation failures, and here I have not even have done one Embryo Transfer (ET), I was confused and worried, I was thinking that she is doing this test just for doing it and nothing else. When I consulted the infertility acupuncturist told about ERA she told that the test is not only done for implantation failure but also for persistent thin lining and your doc does not want to lose the good embryos, but I was not satisfied with her answer and was also not planning to do ERA at that time so left it their.

During my last visit to the clinic it was confirmed that I will be doing ERA next month, my RE also told that I can do ERA next month or wait for one more month, but I am already tired of the waiting game and told her that I will be doing ERA next month itself and asked her all my doubts, then after ERA , will my transfer happen next month after ERA or how what if is lining is still less, she told that’s the reason we do ERA we can know the receptiveness of the lining even if it is less, also with injections we can grow and one more reason she told indirectly was that, with injections and all that the lining will grow and they do not want to miss the window, so this test and in the end she told we will do everything to make you get pregnant but in the end I can give you 70 + 10 (for ERA).

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Once I was back home, again I started googling not the IVF or pregnancy or infertility forms but what ERA is and why, written and explained by doctors and clinics,so this time I read about just ERA not how who has gone through it , when ERA is done and for what its done, its done for two reasons one for obviously implantation failure and the other is for persistent thin lining, In my case she could have tried different method before ERA, but my be its my RE’s protocol I guess and I decided to go with a flow, sometimes we just need to believe and go with the flow.

On another note in one of the post about my friend F, she had transfer in Feb 3rd it was all positive, her beta was fine, but on the 7th week scan no heart beat, so she had to abort the baby, so this IVF/infertility journey is such a frustrating journey until we have our babies in our hand we will never know. If anyone has done ERA test do tell me how it worked for you thank you for reading until here.

IVF – Part 3

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I am done with trigger shot today early morning 2.00 am, it was a nice drive to the clinic to take the injection,in the chilly December weather. Namma  Bengaluru/Bangalore looked like our 90’s Bangalore, it was traffic free and we reached half an hour early. It was 12 days of injections  until yesterday.I was seriously done with injections and wanted to finish of with the trigger injection.The trigger injections they gave me  were ovitrelle 250 on my thigh and HCG 5000 IU on the buttock. So tomorrow it will be my egg retrival.

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The main thing I want to ask here is about EmbryoScope, after my last post the next day it was my day 11 or injections and Scan.I met RE on Tuesday day 11, she checked my lining was good and my follicles/eggs had grown well according to her, compared to my last scan, but she told just one more day of injection, that would be day 12 of injection and last scan before the egg pick up.So I came the next day , she checked my follicles most of them had grown above 20 mm to 21 mm, and few were 18 and above and few were 16 mm, so maybe I had 17 to 20 follicles according to what they were talking (my RE and other Junior doc). She told me everything looks fine and that I am ready for the trigger shot. I had not taken the day 12 injection, so she told me to take the last day injections and some blood work for Estrogen and Progesterone level. They took my file and told that they will call by 4.00 pm to confirm the trigger shot.They rang me and told that my hormones are fine, and I can go ahead with the trigger shot, which I have written above.

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I was about to leave she told just sit down, I was wondering what she was going to tell now, she told me, why don’t you do EmbryoScope and she explained me what it would doing the IVF procedure,it would increase the success rate about extra 10 percent and it costs extra too.Then after finishing she said think  about it and let us know on the egg pick up day. I don’t know anyone who has done embryoScope , would love to know if anybody has done this and how did it workout for you.I googled it some say its worth it , some say it is a new toy in the fertility clinics, so I am confused.We will mostly go for it but I  would like to know from somebody who has first hand experience.Thank you in advance.Wish me luck people for the egg retrival.

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Day 8 of Injections – IVF

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On Saturday it was third scan(including my base line scan) to check my follicles, I hate those USG scans , how many times I have told this but its a fact that I hate those invasive scans, sigh!.RE did the scan and said that my lining was 7.6 mm, then there are two dominant follicles one each side, and almost fifteen or seventeen on both sides, which were above 12 mm so she was not happy I guess. RE did not say anything but I felt I like she was not ok with the development, it was my observation, and I am going mad thinking about it from Saturday, I need to relax, but I am not able to, I am ok today left it to God.

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RE told me, its ok we will just increase dosage of one injection, so injection Humog  was increased form 75 to 150, Humog I have been taking from day one of the injections, it was only 75 , now its 150 from day 8 .Hopefully that injection will help my follicles grow faster.My breasts feel very tender and I have pain too, very slight twinges near my ovaries, I am very tired , sleepy and hungry most of the time,very few time when walking fast I feel heaviness on one of the sides near the ovaries, other wise I am fine, hopefully everything is fine and I get good number and quality eggs.

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Today it will be day 10 of the injections, from day 8 more and more injections as I have said above.I have a scan tomorrow , RE told me that  will see you on Tuesday and hopefully everything will be fine and decide on egg retrieval. I am googling from Saturday, many have written that though they did not have any side effects of injections they had good number of eggs and some have succeeded also in that cycle ,I also stopped googling from yesterday, most of the time google misleads.I am trying to be calm,but I am not always calm.I just wanted to take this out of my system.If anyone has read this, I thank you for reading my blabbering. I am off to take day 10 injections, hopefully tomorrow will be the last day of the injection.

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Injections and Injections – IVF

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Yes, its injections and injections , that’s the part of IVF, I know and everyone who has gone through IVF will know.I am not complaining just saying. Today it is CD 8/Day 7 of injections. on day 6 of injections, RE did the second TV scan after my day 2 scan to start  IVF TV Scan/USG,I hate those TV scans, during the scan she counted my follicles it was maybe 16 or 17 of them, my endometrium lining was 6.6 mm or something.

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RE wanted to add one more injection along with the two other injections which I am already taking  , so its three injections from yesterday. Before adding the third injections RE wanted to know my E2 levels , so gave blood to know about my estrogen level so took only the two injections in the morning. In the evening by 4.00 pm they rang me and said that my levels were normal and I can take the third injection, so off I went to take the third injection, this was also in thigh, so I take three injections two on the thigh and one on the buttock.

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From day one I am taking Gonal F and Humog  until day five, then from day six Cetrotide was added. From yesterday I have slight pain because of injections, but I am fine, its not hindering my day to day activities. I am trying to be calm as much as possible.I have an appointment with RE,tomorrow one more scan and hopefully will know when is the egg retrieval and any more follicles or maybe they will increase or decrease my injection dosages.I am nervous and excited but I don’t want to have too much expectations, I just want to be neutral. Thats all for now, will update tomorrow after my meeting with RE. Any tips would be great.

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IVF – Part 2

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Yes you read it right, finally our first IVF cycle started. What a never ending drama  it was even before I could start and how stressful my life life prior to out IVF cycle. Even on Saturday I was not sure if we will start, finally it started what a relief I must say. I don’t know, I am a bit calmer after all these few days of drama, and trying not to be stressed too much.

I was/have been diagnosed pcos/pcod when I was 18 or 19 years old, so cysts were always a part of me, but from last year when I started taking treatment with my gynecologist it was fine no cysts or maybe they were unnoticeable,even during my Hystro-laparoscopy noting was there,why oh why did it come now, that too, two of them.When I called RE’s clinic last Monday to tell that I have been spotting from Saturday they told me to come, for check up, that’s when she saw those two cysts, sigh!what road block,I had even before I could start.

The spotting also stopped from Monday evening, I din’t know what was happening to my body I felt my body was failing me again and again . I was trying to be calm, but I could not I was depressed, I stopped all the communications with all my support system I have. It was one of the most lowest period of my life I must say, I knew so many people who were going through IVF, everyone were, either starting or in between the cycle or egg retrieval stage and here, I was no where near it.

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I should have started on November 16th, but it was already December , and nothing was happening, I was totally lost, I had palpitations.God I cant even thing about last week. I did everything to get my period, to flow normally in natural ways like heat producing foods, exercise , yoga and meditation to keep myself calm. On Thursday I has stomach ache and slight flow in the evening, I was like I can go and meet RE next day but the bleeding stopped at night and no bleeding until Friday noon, I was going mad, then I just decided to leave it and move on , so decided to go to the parlour  for  a nice soothing  facial and pedicure so I can feel relaxed,when I was back home by 1.30 there was slight bleeding and by evening there was  proper flow.I did not book the appointment until I was sure. On Saturday there was proper flow and  I booked  the  appointment.

On Saturday when I went to the clinic ,there I met my friend F again. Whom I have mentioned in my previous post  . She had come to the clinic to know about how many embryos will be freezed, because in our clinic they don’t do fresh transfer, only FET is done. We spoke for a long time , she made me feel better and told you will start today and even she had cyst and they stated IVF for her even when it just spotted so be calm she told.Then when I went to meet RE, she told everyone in the clinic were tracking my periods sigh.

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I told about my period when it started and all, they did the TVS scan I don’t know  why this time it was very uncomfortable.Then mt RE told that there is persistent cysts so we need to do blood work again before we could start sigh, road block again, but the cyst had reduced compared to last scan. So I gave blood for  progesterone and estradiol test. They told they will call and tell whether I should come or they will prescribe BCP for a month after they get my blood work reports.

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I was waiting again, they did not call me until 4.00 PM, I called the clinic, they told me to come soon, your hormones are fine, you can start today, I just rushed to the clinic, my GOD so much drama it was, ok I have written too much here I guess, now I am off to the clinic to take day 3 cd 4 injections.Wish me luck.( Any grammatical mistakes just ignore I was in a hurry to publish and take of my system.)